Post by clare abernathy on Jul 3, 2011 18:08:51 GMT -5
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Clare peered back at the reflection of a stranger. Resignation was etched upon her features, heralding her defeat in a battle she had never truly fought. Her eyes appeared glassy and distant; her complexion sallow and waxen. The blue silk gown she wore hung loosely where feminine curves had once been. Reaching for the silver brush, Clare paused to pull the mass of hairs that had become trapped within its bristles the last time she had combed through her once-silky tresses. With practiced ease, she smoothed her hair back and fashioned it into a simple chignon.
Her aunt had insisted that they go into town, claiming that the fresh air and sun would help improve Clare’s constitution. Fatigue washed over in thick waves and Clare gripped the edge of the vanity to keep from falling. The power of such episodes had increased in passing weeks. Where they had once ebbed quickly and were easily forgotten they now threatened to pull her beneath their tide and never release her. If she were truthful, the days were increasing where she wished that would happen.
A cough spasmed through her, causing Clare to tremble long after it had ended. Her slender fingers massaged her throat in a vain attempt to ease the pain that had radiated from there since she had first arrived at the country estate over a month ago. At first she had been able to play off the illness as fatigue from the journey, then it was the unease she felt regarding the curious glances and whispers she was certain their friends cast her way at the parties she attended. Despite her parents hope that Clare would be able to escape the scandal by leaving London and Edward behind, some stories were impossible for others not to share.
The mere thought of Edward was enough to cause her thumb to absently massage the vacant space her engagement ring had once occupied. Clare deliberately avoided thoughts of him now. They were a waste of her time. He had made his intentions known that warm Sunday afternoon at her home when he had walked away, and she had ensured he knew she understood when she sent the ring back to his London home.
“Clare, darling, are you almost ready?” came the voice her aunt Ruth from down the hall, chasing away the anger and desolation before it had a chance to overtake Clare. Edward had abandoned her after he promised he never would. He had never asked her what had really happened, opting to accept the rumors and conclusions of others instead. If he had ever known or loved her at all, Clare knew he never would have had to ask.
With a final glance in the mirror, Clare smoothed her skirts and went to meet her aunt in the foyer.
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Clare felt as though her heart would explode as she hurried behind her aunt. The earlier wave of fatigue had yet to ease and she was beginning to worry. With each step the ground slanted dangerously, her vision blurring. Black specks slowly overtook her world and Clare leaned against the wall for support. “Aunt Ruth?” she called weakly. “Could we return home? I’m feeling weak…”
With those words, Clare’s world slipped into blackness. [/ul][/blockquote][/size]